my parents are millionaires and i am on welfare, however, I was making 10K + a month and got hooked on heroin in 2000

my parents are millionaires and i am on welfare and i have no job pay no bills and don't get off the couch.....however I suffer from depression and finally got on new meds, I have low testosterone no sex drive and I'm 37 with 1 yr college to get my degree at PLU I had a successfull web biz (see Tacoma news tribune may 1998 cover biz section for proof) I was making 10K + a month with www.losepounds.com (URL was appraised at 30K 3 yrs ago, oh and by the way I got hooked on heroin in 2000.......so the story begins

so I'm 37 job-less, car-less, hopeless, hoping anti-depressants will give me life back....

8-10-09.......so I'm 37 job-less, car-less, hopeless, hoping anti-depressants will give me life back....I have been on and off cocaine and heroin for 9 years.......off both for 8 months as of today...I wake up 4 times a night, I'm never rested.....I'm the oldest of 4 boys the 2 youngest are fine, myself and Brett (the 2nd oldest) are fucking train wrecks....we both have been in a psych ward for around a week. me in 2006, him 2008. him suicidal over a dumb bitch me on dope trying to fool my employer that i was psycho not on heroin and crack .........that Oprah fraud dude talks about a million little pieces...fuck him...I was at the rehab he wrote about ...even met Owen Wilson (true) it was a damn 1K a day spa....kicking heroin sucked because they BS you and tell you " we will medicate you" well they didn't when i got there (Minnesota, Hazelden rehab) i didn't sleep for 9 days, had hallucinations, and got some against the rules tang late one night........so its 2009...I'm clean depressed unhealthy broke .....my mom pays for me to live......I just need to get a tiny piece of hope or light to get me back to life or wait till the meds work....I decided to volunteer at an adult literacy program....helping others is the only answer 4 drug addicts................my dad used to choke and whip me and i was molested in Hawaii when i was 13............